F̴̰̆ī̴̙r̴̹̀e̵̫͊ ̵̗̀w̷̦̃a̴̞̅l̵̜̉k̸̞͋ ̷̣͋w̴̛̗ǐ̷̲t̴͈̊h̷͖̀ ̴̰̍ḿ̶͕ë̸͓́

There’s this place. It’s a high place. It’s not a mountain; not a hill. It’s just, a high place. Sometimes when I feel down, for whatever reason (be it random depression, good movie, book or game that came to an end), I go there. There are almost never anyone up there, and there’s this field where you can sit and watch the view. It takes about thirty minutes to go there from the city where I live. On a good day, sitting on that field, I can see the tall buildings in the city. As the sun sets, the light reflects in the windows of the tallest one; blinding me. It’s absolutely tranquil.

Through the years, the need for visiting this field has grown. I don’t feel unstable, yet I sometimes feel that reality and my dreams overlap. During my night adventures, I often have a problem telling dream and reality apart. When I was younger, the sleepwalking was just a “thing” I did. A thing that my parents and I had to get used to, and find ways of handling (Which they did. Not by planning, but simply by adapting to whatever method worked to get me to go back to bed without drama). Growing older, it became more troublesome, especially when I moved out of my parents house. Living alone while studying, there was no longer anyone to keep an eye on me and my nightly activities. The risk of crossing some line was always there. But as far as I know, it took many years until any lines were crossed. A few years back, the first line was crossed when I had a nightmare where my necklace was strangling me. To get out of this horrible situation, I ripped my necklace to pieces, spreading the pieces all over the bedroom. I also swallowed a piece of it, for some reason.

I like to call this the “line of violence”. It was the first time I had done any other activity other than talking, walking and opening the occasional door. On top of that, I had used violence, plus putting something in my mouth that I then swallowed. How can I know all this though, since I was sleepwalking? I have mentioned this in previous posts, and I usually describe my sleepwalking like being at the cinema. I see and remember everything, but I’m not in control (My subconscious me is, or Stranger, as I call him). The line of violence made us remove all objects in the bedroom that I could grab and throw, as a precaution. There were still other types of reoccurring incidents, however.

My most common adventure, which happens almost ę̦͚͉̥̟͆̌̀̈̀͝v̧̻̹͇̹͋̾̒̌̅͠ͅȩ̛̠̥̻̞̥̑̏̽̽̕r̛͔̭̜̻̲̲̾͐̀̋͝y̨̛̖͖̘̙̮͛̒̓́͝ night, and has been for the last ten years, is some sort of odd phobia. I sit up in my bed, and feel like there’s something in my throat, or that I can’t breathe. I then throw myself out of the bed, and run out of the room to drink water from the tap in the kitchen. In an attempt to stop myself from doing this, I now always keep a bottle of water next to my bed. I still have the incidents, but now I drink from the bottle instead, which makes the night slightly calmer.

Managing my nightmares has become easier lately. I write them all down, in great detail; as soon as I wake up. The idea is that the dreams that fit a certain pattern, will be included in a horror story that I’m working on.

The problems that are still unsolved, though. The first one is the fact that I may cross more lines. I crossed another one just a few weeks ago, when I left the bed, opened the balcony door and went out on the balcony. The reason? There were “bats” in the apartment, and I had to let them out. To do this, I opened the balcony window, and stood there until I woke up and came to my senses. What if I had decided that the apartment was suddenly on fire? Would I have jumped out the window to a certain death? The best way we have been able to solve this problem so far, has been to block the door with a large AC unit. So far I haven’t been able to move large objects while sleeping, and so far this has stopped me from entering the the balcony again. The second problem, is my grip of reality. By each year, I feel how my grip is getting looser and looser. When I was a kid, I would realise where and who I was rather quickly after I woke up. Even when waking up outside of my bed, I would understand the situation, shrug, and go back to bed. These days it’s getting harder and harder. After waking up outside of bed, in the middle of the night, I can sometimes stand in the dark for several minutes, just to get back my sense of reality. It’s hard to describe it accurately, but it feels like I’m not there, or that I’m still in a dream, trying to understand what’s going on.

Ą̡̦͔͖̖̋̏͐̑̉́s̘͓͖̯̯͕̑͐̐̓̌̿ ̲͉̹͖̰̅̈͋̈͐̊͜m̜̻̝̠̘͍͋̐̍̅́͝y̧̛͙̝̝̝̮̒͋̊͗́ ̹͕͇̹͓̖̋́̇̐͛̕ŝ͎̟͈͔̝́͌̑̚͜͠a̡͙͖̖̖̭̋̃̄̋͝͝n͙͈̻̳̭͙͛̂̑̆́̇i̡̹̙͕͙̞̎̈́̈́͗̿̕t̼͎̳͈̯̝͗͗͆͆͆͠y̛̛̮͓̗͍͕̤̏̈́̓͆ ̧͉̻̤̺͔̔̾̃̂̚͝s̨̨͔̬̙̣̾͛̿̂̒͊l̨̰̭̘̻̥͗̊̈́͂͌̚o̯̭͈̟͕͓̿͋̍̀͊͝w̢̢̮͉͕̯̌̽̓̀̄͠ļ̜̖̥͇͖̂̂́̀̂͝ẙ̨͈͇̤̻̊́͋͠͝ͅ ̝͚̰̪̠̋̍̔͛̽̿͜s̢͙͖̱̙̪̏̊̋̍̓̋l̢̝̞̭̰̪͌̑̓̈́͋̚î̥̪͇̺̣͉̊̃̇̋̔p̨̟̺͇̟̰̅͐͋́̇́s̨̨̪̗͙̩͂̊͊̇̈́̍ ̡̢͍̬̮̌̑̇͂͋͠ͅą̪̮̦̠̲̽͌̀̍͆̐w̳̜͖͕̼͔̉͂̅͌̈͠ă̢͕͕̫̭̯̅́̀͠͠y̡̩̤͎̰̘̏͒͐͂́͠, other parts of me become clearer. I’m able to work on a project more efficiently these days. I have always been hyperactive, so for someone on the outside it may not look like anything has changed, but I can notice the differences. I can work on a project for a long period of time, without the need for sleeping or eating. I’ve always been creative, and this is another part of me that has been going into overdrive lately. I have so many wonderful ideas that are constantly popping into my head. I write them down with as much detail as I can, and when I read what I wrote, several days later, it still sounds fantastic. I just hope I can realise some of these ideas before my mind is too corrupted to be of any more use. I feel that at some point, my mind will simply degrade to a state where I can’t think straight, and where the well of ideas has simply run dry.

Maybe, in ten years or so, I will be that crazy aunt in the family. The crazy cat lady who speaks nonsense and never gets anything done. She mostly sits around all day, counting stamps and arguing with people on the TV. I just hope that this is nothing more than a weird feeling. A side effect of my hyper active mind. That my sanity is here to stay, and instead, some changes to the way I think are simply misinterpreted. I hope I will have a happy ending. That I will live together with my partner, until we grow old and die of age. That at least some of my work will reach the outside of my notebooks, and that I will live a healthy and stable life.

I’m not really good at drawing these days, but I wanted to attempt to depict the feeling of a creative period where insanity grows in ones head. The drawing below is the result of that. It’s a dark itching feeling, like stress, that stay with you for a very long time. So far it has always gone away, and only come back during my most intense periods of work . However, these periods have become increasingly intense lately. In one sense, I’m grateful, as I can create beautiful things that I’m proud of; but on the other hand, I feel that it comes with a price. A price of a slowly deteriorating mind.

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Playing Dead Space 3 on Linux using Wine

Found a number of reviews online where people got this running with zero issues. I had loads of issues, mostly with Origin not loading properly when installing. Well I recently discovered Lutris, and I absolutely love it. It’s like a successor to PlayOnLinux (A project I now consider dead). Lutris is an open gaming platform that collects all kinds of games that are available for Linux, be it native through wine or an emulator (SNES, PSP .. etc).

The breakthrough I had here was that I could get Origin to install via the installer that comes for it in Lutris.

Step 1: Install Lutris (Current version: 0.4.18)

Step 2: Using Lutris, install Origin. Pick the x64 installer, not the DXVK one. The Wine version used when I installed was staging-3.12-x86_64. Let the installer finish, then login.

Step 3: Install Dead Space 3 via Origin. It will download, then ask you to install it. Nothing will happen for a while, and if you try to turn off Origin, it will tell you that the game is still being installed. Wait for five minutes, then right click the game in Origin, and chose “Repair”. After the game files have been verified, you should go to menu in Origin: “Origin -> Application Settings”. The most important feature to turn off is “More -> Origin in-game”. I turned off everything under all tabs, except for “Install & Games -> Cloud storage -> Saves”.

Complete list of what I disabled:

Application

  • “Show Origin after gameplay”
  • “Automatic game updates”
  • “Automatically update Origin”
  • “Automatically start Origin”
  • “Origin Helper service”

Diagnostics

  • “Share hardware info”

Notifications

  • Everything

More -> Origin in-game

  • Enable Origin In-Game (Misleading, but it means I disabled it)

After doing this, turn on the game through Origin. You need to go to settings and then visual settings in the game. Set the resolution to your preferred one (1920×1080 for me), and disable v-sync.

For good measure you can now turn off the game, and Origin; then start Origin and the game from Lutris to make sure it still works. That’s it. With the above instructions, the game runs smooth and flawlessly for me.

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Enjoy!

Stranger – Chapter 9 – The fire extinguisher is red

For the first time in recorded history, I managed to somehow overthrow Stranger. He went up last night and sat on the bed. For some reason, I could sort of communicate with him. Not talk, or think, or signal in anyway. The best way for me to describe it, is to say that I was half awake, and in control, but Stranger was suggesting things that we should do; and I tried to overcome the sudden urge to let him take over and just do it. Anyway, so he really wanted to check out the balcony, but I convinced him that we should stare at the fire extinguisher in the corner for a few minutes instead; then go back to sleep. So no dangerous adventures this time!

The fire extinguisher is red.

Playing Life Is Strange: Before the Storm on Linux using Wine

This doesn’t really need much explanation since it’s platinum on WineHQ at the moment. If you know how Wine works, you don’t need the info in this post; but if you need a push then this can help. Basically the script, like in other posts I’ve made, will simply install steam and set everything up for you. Then, you have to install the game via Steam and you’re good to go. The desktop file at the end of the post is just for simplicity so that it’s easier to run, but you can run it manually or just create another launcher if you want.

I will gradually make my install scripts better, but this works for now. I’ve always used PlayOnLinux before, but since that platform hasn’t gotten much love lately; I decided to abandon it. I’ve tried multiple times to update my scripts on POL, but nothing ever happens since you need an admin to accept your changes all the time. Thus, I have decided to simply make bash scripts to install all my games, and share my results here. The goal is to have a general script template that I can use (that makes it more user friendly) that helps me and others to install games on Linux using Wine (without making it a larger project like POL). Anyway, enjoy :- ).

https://appdb.winehq.org/objectManager.php?sClass=version&iId=35717

But I’ll include the Steam install script anyway, plus the desktop file to launch it. An important detail about installing this, is that it has to be installed in a 64-bit prefix in Wine.

if ! [ -x "$(command -v wine)" ]; then
        echo "Installing latest wine"
        #Update all repos
        sudo apt-get update

        #Enable 32bit (If you're on 64bit)
        sudo dpkg --add-architecture i386

        #Add wine repo
        wget -nc https://dl.winehq.org/wine-builds/Release.key
        sudo apt-key add Release.key
        sudo apt-add-repository https://dl.winehq.org/wine-builds/ubuntu/

        #Install wine-devel (3.11)
        sudo apt-get update
        sudo apt-get install --install-recommends winehq-devel
fi

#Install latest winetricks
echo "Installing latest winetricks"
wget  https://raw.githubusercontent.com/Winetricks/winetricks/master/src/winetricks
chmod +x winetricks
sudo mv winetricks /usr/bin

echo "Installing Steam and various"
mkdir -p ~/.wine-apps/lis
WINEARCH=win64 WINEPREFIX=~/.wine-apps/lis/ winetricks tahoma corefonts ie8 allfonts steam

if you get an error saying “The content servers are unreachable” when trying to install the game via steam, then the following Reddit thread might be able to help you with that.

Also, if you want to have a launcher that you can search for in Unity or Gnome, then just create the file steam-lis.desktop with this content (replace USER with your username).

sudo vim /usr/share/applications/steam-lis.desktop

[Desktop Entry]
Name=Steam Life Is Strange - Before The Storm
Exec=env WINEPREFIX="/home/USER/.wine-apps/lis/" wine "/home/USER/.wine-apps/lis/drive_c/Program Files (x86)/Steam/Steam.exe" -no-cef-sandbox
Type=Application
StartupNotify=true
Path="/home/USER/.wine-apps/lis/drive_c/Program Files (x86)/Steam/"
Icon=BAC4_steam.0
StartupWMClass=steam.exe
Name[en_US]=Steam - Life Is Strange - Before The Storm

 

 

Playing Final Fantasy XIV (FFXIV) on Linux using Wine

There’s a pretty neat Reddit thread about this issue, but I don’t want to use Gallium so I just made a simple script to install it for me. Since it took a bit of experimenting to get it work (In the end it was all about the wine version, and not many other prerequisites were needed) I’m posting it in case others find it useful. Note that the last line is how you start the game later, so just make a start script or a desktop shortcut to start it afterwards.

Distro: Ubuntu 18.04 (x64)

if ! [ -x "$(command -v wine)" ]; then
	echo "Installing latest wine"
	#Update all repos
	sudo apt-get update
 
	#Enable 32bit (If you're on 64bit)
	sudo dpkg --add-architecture i386

	#Add wine repo
	wget -nc https://dl.winehq.org/wine-builds/Release.key
	sudo apt-key add Release.key
	sudo apt-add-repository https://dl.winehq.org/wine-builds/ubuntu/
 
	#Install wine-stable (3.0.1)
	sudo apt-get update
	sudo apt-get install --install-recommends winehq-stable
fi

echo "Installing latest winetricks"
wget  https://raw.githubusercontent.com/Winetricks/winetricks/master/src/winetricks
chmod +x winetricks
sudo mv winetricks /usr/bin

echo "Creating FFXIV Wine prefix"
mkdir ~/.ffxiv
cd ~/.ffxiv

echo "Downloading FFXIV setup file"
wget http://gdl.square-enix.com/ffxiv/inst/ffxivsetup.exe

echo "Installing required files with winetricks"
WINEARCH=win32 WINEPREFIX=~/.ffxiv winetricks -q corefonts allfonts tahoma #ie8 wininet winhttp wmp9 wmp10 xinput ie8_kb2936068 devenum quartz hosts win7

echo "Installing game client"
WINEARCH=win32 WINEPREFIX=~/.ffxiv wine ffxivsetup.exe

echo "Starting game client. Please login and install the game"
cd "drive_c/Program Files/SquareEnix/FINAL FANTASY XIV - A Realm Reborn/boot"
WINEARCH=win32 WINEPREFIX=~/.ffxiv wine ffxivboot.exe

 

Playing visual novels on Linux using Wine

So I play a lot of visual novels these days. One problem is that most of them are only released on Windows, and I don’t use Windows. So for that I use Wine. Below is a simple script to setup Steam with Wine so that you can play the visual novels available through Steam. Make sure you check the visual novel on steam before you use this solution however, since some of them do have Linux support and can be run via the Steam Linux client.

Distro: Ubuntu 18.04 (x64)

if ! [ -x "$(command -v wine)" ]; then
	echo "Installing latest wine"
	#Update all repos
	sudo apt-get update

	#Enable 32bit (If you're on 64bit)
	sudo dpkg --add-architecture i386

	#Add wine repo
	wget -nc https://dl.winehq.org/wine-builds/Release.key
	sudo apt-key add Release.key
	sudo apt-add-repository https://dl.winehq.org/wine-builds/ubuntu/

	#Install wine-stable (3.0.1)
	sudo apt-get update
	sudo apt-get install --install-recommends winehq-stable
fi

#Install latest winetricks
echo "Installing latest winetricks"
wget  https://raw.githubusercontent.com/Winetricks/winetricks/master/src/winetricks
chmod +x winetricks
sudo mv winetricks /usr/bin

echo "Installing Steam and various"
mkdir -p ~/.wine-apps/steam
WINEARCH=win32 WINEPREFIX=~/.wine-apps/steam/ winetricks tahoma corefonts ie8 allfonts steam

echo "Login to steam and install the Visual Novel"

 

Also, if you need a desktop icon for the Steam client, you can put it in the file /usr/share/applications/steam-windows.desktop (Remember to replace USER with your username).

[Desktop Entry]
Name=Steam
Exec=env WINEPREFIX="/home/USER/.wine-apps/steam" wine "/home/USER/.wine-apps/steam/drive_c/Program Files/Steam/Steam.exe" -no-cef-sandbox
Type=Application
StartupNotify=true
Path=/home/USER/.wine-apps/steam/dosdevices/c:/Program Files/Steam
Icon=BAC4_steam.0
StartupWMClass=steam.exe
Name[en_US]=Steam - Windows

 

For other visual novels not on Steam, I just create a folder called “Games” under “/home/USER/.wine-apps/steam/dosdevices/c:/Program Files/” and put them there. Then you can add another shortcut to that specific game like below.

[Desktop Entry]
Name=VisualNovel
Exec=env WINEPREFIX="/home/USER/.wine-apps/steam" wine "/home/USER/.wine-apps/steam/drive_c/Program Files/Games/VN/VisualNovel.exe"
Type=Application
StartupNotify=true
Path=/home/USER/.wine-apps/steam/dosdevices/c:/Program Files/Games
Icon=/path/to/icon/file
StartupWMClass=VisualNovel.exe
Name[en_US]=VisualNovel

For steam download issue: https://www.reddit.com/r/wine_gaming/comments/8r0gh6/steam_in_winedevel_content_servers_unreachable/

Also, some visual novels outside of Steam may run into all sorts of problems. You can install a separate Wine prefix for that and do individual settings for such games. The following worked for me for one game that crashed when going into full screen. Generally I try to stick with the ones on Steam as I keep having the most luck with them using Wine. Sometimes they simply aren’t available though.

mkdir -p ~/.wine-apps/vn
WINEARCH=win32 WINEPREFIX=~/.wine-apps/vn/ winetricks tahoma corefonts ie8 allfonts d3dx9_36 wmp9 quartz ddr=gdi win7

#Start game
env WINEPREFIX="/home/USER/.wine-apps/vn" wine "/home/USER/.wine-apps/vn/drive_c/Program Files/Games/vn/vn.exe"

 

Installing EiskaltDC++ 2.2.10 on Ubuntu 18.04

Nothing really special, I just keep forgetting which packages I need (And it’s bothersome to keep going through the list of requirements). So here’s a quick guide/script of how to download and compile it. Mostly for myself, but I thought maybe someone else could make use of it.

sudo apt-get -y build-dep eiskaltdcpp-qt eiskaltdcpp eiskaltdcpp-cli eiskaltdcpp-common libeiskaltdcpp-devlibeiskaltdcpp-dev

sudo apt-get -y install libqt5core5a qt5-default qttools5-dev-tools qtmultimedia5-dev libbz2-dev libssl1.0-dev libidn11-dev libboost1.65-dev libaspell-dev libre2-dev libminiupnpc-dev lua5.1 liblua5.1-dev liblua50-dev libboost-system1.65-dev qml-module-qtquick2 libdee-qt5-dev qtscript5-dev qtdeclarative5-dev libqt4-dev libqt4-declarative

git clone https://github.com/eiskaltdcpp/eiskaltdcpp.git

cd eiskaltdcpp/

mkdir builddir && cd builddir

cmake -DCMAKE_BUILD_TYPE=Release -DCMAKE_INSTALL_PREFIX=/usr -DUSE_QT=ON -DUSE_GTK=ON -DUSE_JS=ON -DUSE_ASPELL=ON -DUSE_QT_QML=ON -DUSE_QT_SQLITE=ON -DLUA_SCRIPT=ON -DWITH_LUASCRIPTS=ON -DWITH_SOUNDS=ON -DPERL_REGEX=ON -DNO_UI_DAEMON=ON -DJSONRPC_DAEMON=ON -DUSE_CLI_JSONRPC=ON -DUSE_MINIUPNP=ON -DLOCAL_MINIUPNP=ON ..

make

sudo make install

‘make install’ will create a desktop file for you, so you should be able to reach it from whatever menu system you’re using, and add it to favorites/create a shortcut. I know there are some stuff that could be improved, but meh. If anyone feels like pointing them out, then feel free to do so 🙂